With this post I originally used the hand written version of my account of my recovery from cocaine addiction, I wanted to convey something that is personal about handwriting by doing so. I will put the images of the handwritten pages here again soon but for now I refer you to the next post which is exactly the same but typed out and much easier to read really.
I am sharing here my truth of recovery from cocaine addiction. I wrote the below eleven page letter about two and a half years ago, it is roughly and crudely written, I apologize for spelling and grammar errors, I am posting it unaltered (screenshots of the original hand written letter) and am hoping that the honesty is what is seen, read and understood.
Today is August 30, 2023 and I have been clean/free of cocaine since just after Christmas of 2018. Recovery from substances is never an easy or perfect path and each path taken is unique. It is a process, not an event.
I can look back to a time prior to my addiction when what it was to be addicted to such a dangerous, financially costly, life destroying and life ending substance made no sense to me. I would see people who were clearly struggling with what I struggled with and would think “why don’t they just quit?” Before I went down the path of addiction, I thought it was something that would never happen to me, and when I took my first steps down that path I did not foresee how bad it would get or how much I would suffer and loose.
August 31st is International Overdose Awareness Day, it is not lost on me how lost I was, and how fortunate I am to be alive and free, and no I am not perfect but I have learned many lessons and am still learning, growing and evolving as a human being, again “it’s a process, not an event” as is everything.
https://wellbeing.gov.bc.ca/blog/international-overdose-awareness-day
https://www.momsstoptheharm.com/
Please click/tap the thumbnail/images for full screen view of the individual pages.
Images to be added soon and please see the next post for the easier to read typed version.